人生总是如此，
people come and go.

Some people come into your life when you're unanticipated and change your life completely.

When you got used to the lifestyle he gave, they leave unexpectedly.

What's more saddening than it?

Promises were given, you thought he will never leave and will stay forever through ups and downs, and all the shits.

Not only by words but with action too. Still, he left very quickly.
In the blink of an eyes, he is no longer in your life.

You started curious, why is this happening?

You seek everywhere, every way and you found some ideas of what you did that make him leave.

You blame yourself for not being perfect enough, you lose confidence gradually.

You cried yourself to sleep every night, woke up in tears with the nightmare you had.

him married someone else,
 him blaming your dishonest,
him blaming your immature,
him complaining all your imperfection.
You intoxicate yourself,
not wanting to wake up and face the fact that he left.

You imagines he's still next to you,
kiss you goodbye/goodnight as usual,

FaceTime you whenever he has free time,

you imagine it all day er day.

One day, you realize it is just your imagination

and, it is time to wake up.

You drained yourself too much in it,
you cried all your heart out when you wake up.

You start to realize, 

this isn't your fault that he left.

You kicked him out from your thoughts,
and live your life, start to love yourself as hard as you loved him.

You embrace the live you used to have, 

realized how much efforts and sacrifices you have put into this relationship. 

You thought he was forever, 

but he is just a passerby who taught you a lesson,
who gave you memories.

He is just a memories, 

how sarcastic.

It sounds like he is nothing but a memories,

but the memories are deeply embedded in your heart, 

whenever the memories strike back, 

it hurts a little,
your eyesight blurred.

He left you cruelly, 

removed everything from his life,

and shut you out.

And dream came true, he married someone after separated in 6 months. 

That night, he wasn't sleep next to you,

you were worried, you seek the whole house looking for him,

no sight of him.

You tried to called but his phone is with you, 

you relaxed yourself, comforting yourself,

sing yourself to sleep,

it was 3 am in the night.

You couldn't sleep, even with the lights off.
You close your eyes, but your brain is awake.

The door opened, you wake up immediately.
He shocked seeing you awake at 4 am 

As we have to wake at 5.30 later

He put you to sleep immediately,

knowing sleep is very important to me.

It is so ridiculous that this strike back,

cause you know you ain't going back,
where he's deeply in love with you.

You worked for his family business,
from early morning to late night,

but this isn't the life you want.

You tried to escape, 

but you have no where to run.

You have no idea where to go,

what to do.

Everything in your mind is 

what should you do to make their business run better,

how to improve yourself as they are watching you.

You're stressed out,
you're dis motivated,
you tried hard to look for a way.

And realize,
You love him too much that you lose yourself. 

The last photo of us with his newly wed sis

You sacrificed all your life for him, his family.
But you don't blame him, 

In the end, 

you're the one who choose your own life.

I'm glad that you left me for another,

forced myself to leave the life you have given.

I'm proud to announce you no longer linger around,

even the memories couldn't hit me,
I can story us to every who questioned us.

Everyone felt sorry for me,
but I am not.

Because I'm happier. 

End this with one of our favorite.

Thanks YMLOH for the wonderful time.
I'll miss you.